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I write to you all the time

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always, you see.

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Nothing else but this.

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Nothing.

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I'm writing maybe a thousand letters

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you, to give to you

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letters of my present life.

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And you, you'll do with them
what I'd like...

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you to do with them

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which is, whatever you want.

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That's what I desire.

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That this be delivered to you.

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Where are you?

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How to reach you?

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How can we come close

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in this love,

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cancel this apparent fragmentation

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of time

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which separates us,
one from the other?

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Listen.

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I'll never separate you from your body.

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Never.

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It's three in the afternoon

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The sun is out behind the trees

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the air is cool.

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I'm in the big room
where I spend the Summer,

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Facing the garden.

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On the other side of the glass
there is a forest of roses

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and for three days

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there's been this cat

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skinny,

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white,

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who has started looking at me

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through the glass,

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eye to eye,

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he scares me

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he cries

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he is lost

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he wants to belong

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and I don't want to any more.

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Where are you?

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What are you doing?

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Where are you lost?

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Where were you lost
while I cried that I was scared?

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They say that you live on
one of the islands next to France

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and other places too

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They say you're in an equatorial land

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where you died

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a long time ago,

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in the heat,

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buried in the charnel of a plague

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or even in that of a war

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or even that of a camp
in occupied Poland.

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To me,

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it's all the same.

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I see your eyes.

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I see the sky in a river

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is a blue

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of the same colour, liquid

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and blue as your eyes.

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I see that it's not true

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that while I write to you

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nobody has died,

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And that you are there, you too

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in this empty continent.

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It's Summer here.

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Did you love the Summer?

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I don't know anymore.

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For myself I don't know any more.

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I don't know any more if I loved it

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outside of you.

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Do you remember?

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This word.

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This country.

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This dark land.

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You used to say: nothing remains

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but this path.

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This river.

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How to get back to our love.

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How?

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The light has sunk

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it seems

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behind the trees

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there's a wind

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It's turning cooler.

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The garden is full of birds

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and the cat

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becoming crazy

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with hunger.

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And to me,

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it's all the same.

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The roses are going to die very soon now

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It's fading out

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on the other side of the glass.

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The sky, above the river

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will become dark.

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Night is falling

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on the cat, leprous

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starving

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frightening

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On the garden so still around him

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the night also falls.

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I see it.

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It spreads over you,

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over me,

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over the river.

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Can you still see?

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You can no longer see, perhaps?

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They speak

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They say that everything
had been built on the land.

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That it's all been lived in,

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occupied,

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by peoples,

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by governments,

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That there were palaces
on the banks of rivers

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and between the palaces,
thickets of nettles,

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brambles,

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and swarms of running children.

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And women,

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starved thin.

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That there were islands.

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And temples.

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That there was a forest.

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I know nothing

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of generalities,

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of peoples

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and of the world.

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None of them

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can stand in for you

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for this preference

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that I have for you.

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None.

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Listen,

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under the arches of the river,

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now, the sound of the sea

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those of the dark cave

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and the cries of that leprous cat

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you know,

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the one blind with hunger

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and who calls out across time.

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Do you hear it?

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No?

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Perhaps you hear nothing more?

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No?

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Keep listening. Try.

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How to come to the end of our love?

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Listen.

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under the arches of the river,

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this surge.

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Keep listening.

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This apparent fragmentation

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that I just told you of

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has gone.

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Together we need to come closer

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to the end.

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To that of our love.

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Don't be afraid.

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It's strange,

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this look that the river gets

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sometimes

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in the clarity of night

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of going towards the sea

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racing

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to completely

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lose itself...

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But who are you?

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But who?

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How did this come about?

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How will this come about?

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Don't you still hear?

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In London,

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in the course of this plague?

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You understand?

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Or of this war?

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In this camp of the German "East"?

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In this Siberian one?

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Or in these islands, here?

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Here, you understand?

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No?

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Me, I don't know anymore.

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I know only of this love

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that I have for you.

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Complete.

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Terrible.

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And that you're not here
to free me from it.

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Never.

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Never,

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do I separate you from our love,

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from our story.

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Many have been killed here.

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It's said.

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Killed,

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yes.

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Did you know that?

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Nearly every day. For a thousand years.

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Thousands and thousands of years.

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Yes.

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One time.

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A thousand times.

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A hundred thousand.

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The river

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all bloody.

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They shed blood,

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they imprisoned

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they wounded.

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A thousand years.

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It's then,

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yes, after,

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that all this was produced -

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for a very long time nothing.

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And then, of a sudden, your eyes.

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Your eyes on me.

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First, the liquid
and empty blue of your eyes.

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And then, you saw me.

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On this cat, skinny

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and crazed,

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night has now fallen.

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On me,

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your form.

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You know, they say
it was crematoria, near Cracow,

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that your body
was separated from mine...

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as if that was possible...

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They say anything... they don't know...

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[they know nothing...]

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Listen...

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The cat, he's crying.

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Hunger and wind

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are eating him up

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through the tears, the cat

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in wind and hunger,

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the dark garden

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He cries in the dark cave...

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Listen...

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We say he complains...

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As if he was speaking...

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What?

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What was he saying?

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What word?

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What designation,

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senseless?

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inept?

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I do not separate you

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from your body

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I do not separate you from me.

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You used to say: nothing remains

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this city

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our dark land

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So temperate,

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have you forgotten?

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Have you forgotten everything?

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You used to say:

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the histories draw out

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the length of the river.

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You used to speak
of their riverine monotony

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so sweet

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it calls you to lie down next it

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and to leave with it.

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Yes.

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You've forgotten everything.

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Everything

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What to do

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so that we shall have lived this love?

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What...

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to do so that this love has been lived?

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A fog is gathering in the garden.

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It spreads over the river.

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I see.

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The cat

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no longer crying.

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He is dead.

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Cold

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and hunger.

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It's strange...

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It's by way of that cat,
skinny and crazed

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now dead

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by way of the garden

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so still

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around him

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that I reach you.

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By this white whiteness,

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this infinite fog

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that I reach your body.

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My name is Aurelia Steiner.

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I live in Melbourne

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where my parents are teachers.

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I'm 18 years old.

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I write.